i’m top of / above ground

I'm top of

above ground—

an upside down Y.

I can see

the lights on

but shut the lights off

before I—.

those that was

might be

keep on-ing

as I'm talking

of me.

instead, what I'm doing is—

I'm just kind of—

there was—

cars.

all I could hear is 

patter—where

for the first time. 

I spent the conversation

like traffic 

going for eternity. 

just a single car

and then gone— 

                 gone,

after it left. 

        now gone 

from your brain.

this is what happens. 

I mess up in my body

—something special 

takes place.

and you can tell, 

you know, 

in the beginning 

almost like you can tell, 

you know—

like a motherfucking 

          microphone.

that's what it's about. 

how you get voice out,

noises smoking

captured 

                for a single role. 

and I was just—

I didn't want to 

walk that road.

so scared of it. 

it was a weird,

uncanny feeling.

beautiful like streets—

creatures 

          that have been

finding humanity in life.

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